I finally got around to seeing Superbad. I can’t tell if my sense of humor is off, or I was just affected by all the hype. There were some funny parts, but I wasn’t falling over laughing like I was expecting to. A shame because I forgot to take Knocked Up off my Netflix list, and I have to watch that now. We’ll see what happens. Maybe my expectations are so low now I’ll actually like it.
1 year ago this month I was on the Master Cleanser. The rest of the year I sat around and ate as much as I could, and I gained even more weight than where I was originally. My mom is going to be mad at me, but I’m on it again. The idea is to learn from mistakes and keep fit afterwards. This will be the last time. I think I’ve discovered that, like alcohol, my capacity is not what “normal” people can eat. Not to mention the average portions in the US are ridiculous. I think I got used to eating like “normal” people and didn’t think anything of it. I got to the point where I was thinking it was strange that I just wanted to go home and lay down after every meal, where other people can actually do things after they ate! I have my portion plan now. With that, no soda, and exercising regularly, I think I have a chance. The portion control will be the toughest. I’ll be regularly leaving food on the plate when I declare I’m done This is extremely against the grain for me since I grew up with a filipino mother! The problem will be when the food is particularly good. When I’ve decided to stop in the past, I’ve gotten this urge to continue that scarily reminded me of when I was trying to quit smoking! Like smoking, I’ve had a number of false starts, but I think I’ve “hit bottom” with 225 lbs. Hopefully that was bottom!
Today was Bonus day at work. It’s also the day that raises and promotions get announced. I was hired as an AVP in the middle of May last year, so I wasn’t expecting a promotion or anything. I was also under the impression you couldn’t get a VP title without becoming a manager. The awesome news is that my coworker, who is not a manager, was promoted to VP. He totally deserves it, and it gives me hope. I was a little concerned that my career had plateaued and I would have to become a manager to move on. BNP has been treating me well, and I think I’ll stick around a while. My manager and coworkers are a riot. Good times!

In these post, I always claim I will post more often, then a few months go by. I was reading the autobiography of Eric Clapton and was wondering, “How the heck does he remember so many things from that long ago?” Not to mention the drug and alcohol induced haze he must have been in the whole time. Then I got to the part where he directly quotes his diary. He also talked about other people who all kept diaries. I remember the idea of keeping a diary was more popular when I was a kid in the 80s, but I don’t really see that anymore. The weblog is probably the modern diary, but they seem to be less personal. Probably because everyone can read it. Any way, I have it on my long-term goals to be less self-conscious, so perhaps I’ll try to make this into more of a diary. I’ll need information for my auto-biography in a couple decades!
Moving on… to bring us current, since November:
- I went to Brownsville for a 3 week vacation covering Thanksgiving. I didn’t make it to Austin this time, which was a mistake, because after the second week, I was hating it. I also started my decent. I told myself that I was going to let loose for the vacation, then when I got back, I’d exercise, be healthy, blah blah. It’s now February, and I just started exercising a few weeks ago. I’m losing weight now, but I reached my fattest in January topping out at 225 lbs. (It’s a diary now, more personal stuff!)
- I finally got out to Peter Luger’s. I wasn’t that happy with everything. I thought I had too high expectations, and they just didn’t live up to it. The more I thought about it, the more I realized it was our fault. The waiter was being very clear about how they cooked it, and I kind of ignored him and ordered the undercooked porterhouse. It was a little blue, which is their “medium-rare”. From now on, I am going to specify “just past the point where the blue disappears”. I won’t use “medium-rare” anymore. Also, the next few days, I did find myself remembering the tenderness of the steak, and actually dreamt about it once. I now think that they quality of the meat was extraordinary, but I let the miscommunication cloud my opinion. I’d like to go back, but may be difficult to convince my friends. There are so many other steak places in NYC to get to.
- My G&G shoes were mentioned in the last post, and now I’ve had some time with them. They are my absolute favorite shoes ever! I was planning on getting a pair from 3 different companies for variety, but now I’m considering just sticking with G&G. These are my light brown shoes. I still need a dark brown derby and a black brouge’d cap-toe. The other companies I’m looking at are John Lobb Paris and Edward Green. I’ve done a lot of reading on shoes. Also on clothes in general, but I want to keep my clothing purchases to a minimum until I reach a decent weight. Shoes are one of the only things I can really buy at this point.

Other than that, my focus has really been on work and trying to exercise. I have been going everyday now and am starting to see some results. I’m on a good path. On the negative side, I haven’t been going out at all. Just work and exercise. Otherwise, I’m watching TV in my room. That’ll change soon.